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[03 Mar 2004|05:44pm] |
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I'd wait until the end of time.
It wouldn't matter if we never found each other.
I'd still wait. Just for him.
Is this stupid of me?
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[03 Mar 2004|05:38pm] |
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shokubetsu no nai kuukyo - deadman |
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An interesting predicament, indeed. . .
Sakiya-kun invited me to his apartment last night for some onigiri and drinking.
. . . This is all I really have to report.
- Eden, feeling thoughtful
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| chu te ne |
[01 Mar 2004|09:17pm] |
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Mayu snoring... |
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What a busy little bee I've been...
Well, that's not quite true. But compared to my past efforts at socialization, I've been quite busy these past few days.
Sakiya-kun text messaged me a few nights ago, practically begging (yes, begging, and you know it, dear <3) me to go out for drinks with him. So I did, and it was a lovely, joyous, drunk occasion. ... Not me. Sakiya-kun. I don't get drunk. :)
And then I went of my own free will to the Neurocycle event. I got to see zyun-san again which was very nice. I also met the other members of Neurocycle, but I won't comment on anyone... It was interesting to finally see zyun-san play. I enjoyed it quite a bit, and ended up getting a copy of their new single.
Sakiya> Remember your promise. Both of them. Despite what I say, I really am always free for a night of debauchery. ... Well, we'll see about the debauchery part.
zyun> I'd love for us to play together sometime. Look into it? It was wonderful seeing you again, and finally getting to see you play.
52> Hello. <3
- Eden, feeling exhausted
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[25 Feb 2004|04:38pm] |
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I apologise for not updating... I've been locked in my room, listening to the incessant sound of がらがらくり coming from the rusted pipe outside my window. I'm not sure if it's just the prefecture I live in, but it's been rather windy and cold and rainy lately. I haven't been watching the weather, so I wouldn't know about all of you.
How are you all, by the way?
I hope you're all doing fine...
I think most of you have my keitai number so if anyone feels like talking or going out somewhere, I'm completely and utterly free.
And if not, time to go close the curtains and hide in my room again.
- Eden, feeling cold
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| Oh me, oh my... |
[08 Feb 2004|09:36pm] |
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Hello - Hyde |
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Interesting things have been happening of late. . .
Of the more note-worthy, my willful "engagement" to 52-san. . .
I'm sorry to report, 52-san, though, my heart belongs to another. Hope no animosity arises from this... <3
Of other things, I'm bored. Have gotten spoiled from going to the hot springs last week so that I'm itching to get out again.
Someone, plan something, please?
- Eden, feeling tired
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| ai yai yai |
[29 Jan 2004|04:37pm] |
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Hum Hum - The Ceiling Fan |
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So, for those interested in coming down to the hot springs for some R&R this Saturday, it'll be at 5:30 at the Yamakawa Hot Springs in Setagaya. It isn't too far from Tokyo, but it's rather remote so be careful. Wouldn't want any of you to get lost. :x
As for me? Right now, I'm eating fried spaghetti I got from the conbini. There's no food in my apartment. Absolutely none. Well, that's not true. I have a tube of roll-on butter in the fridge (and I never plan to actually use that, but it was so amusing I had to buy one), some stale bread, and a half-empty barrel of sake in my pantry. I just haven't had the energy to go grocery shopping lately. For awhile there, even Mayu's food was starting to look pretty tasty... but I ended up going down to Lawson and I got aforementioned fried spaghetti and a bottle of green tea. This'll tide me over for the next day or so... or until next I decide I can be bothered to go get food.
We did a new photoshoot yesterday. When I have time, I shall change my icon to reflect.
- Eden, feeling full and high and so alive
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[10 Jan 2004|10:24am] |
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Emit Remmus - Red Hot Chili Peppers |
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Things are kind of odd nowadays. I don't feel motivated to do anything.
Sometimes I feel like my voice is failing me.
Something doesn't feel right about my body, like something within me is stretching to get out.
Maybe I should just-- oh, my dog just ran into the wall.
>_< Stupid Mayu. How dare she interrupt this angsty post?
I leave now, to pet her bumps and wonder how an animal can make me feel better than most people can.
- Eden
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| mmm, party |
[04 Aug 2003|08:06pm] |
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a wonder in fxxkerland - Eden's Influence |
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I am listening to "a wonder in fxxkerland" right now. It's still the demo since we haven't had a session since that day. The lyrics are the vaguely disturbing things I force myself to write. You know, the kind that the media reads too much into?
But it's just words that I like, strung into phrases that I like, then mashed into verses that I like. Er... I think.
The party is tomorrow. I have a small barrel of sake, complete with handle for easy carrying on the subway, sitting in my kitchen. I'm alllll ready.
Well, not all ready. The issue with Destiny is still at hand.
So... if I don't show up, it probably means I had to attend to that.
In the event of me not showing up, the key's hidden in the fake hanging plant to the right of the lamp, and the sake's underneath the sink.
Have fun.
(Now I am wondering should I have put that? Ah well, on the offchance one of you breaks into my house, it will at least put some excitement into my life. Then again would it be breaking in after I gave you detailed instructions on how to get into my house, plus initiative? Alcohol's a powerful thing. I think too much. Off to take a shower.)
- Eden, feeling... hmm, how am I feeling?
( OOC )
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| Thus ends all... |
[31 Jul 2003|08:11pm] |
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Eden's Influence is not fairing too good.
Destiny is thinking of leaving. Inner-band troubles made him end up spouting out his feelings and spout he did. A lot of things about running in circles and indies frustration. I think it's basically what everyone else is feeling. It's not anything we can do anything about, though.
As the leader, I got the nasty finger-pointing deal. He accused me of wanting us to stay like we are forever, and never move forward, for whatever reason.
Really, having Dest-kun explode like that was surprising. Not even two hours ago, he had stolen my beloved trenchcoat and made his bass model it. Then suddenly during practice, he just stopped playing. As if on cue, Kakumei set his guitar down, too.
If it had been for any other reason, it would've been worth it just to see the slow confusion spread across Xiao-Lung's face when he realized there was nothing backing up his beat.
I would've thought, if anybody, Kakumei would've been the first one to leave. He's always so volatile and I never know if something I say will make him laugh or punch a wall. Actually, I think Kakumei was this close to exploding too. Destiny just beat him to it.
Xiao-Lung, bless his heart, is the least of my worries. He's content to just stay tucked behind his drums, waiting for my next move.
But as for Destiny... I don't really know what to do. If he leaves, almost surely Kakumei will leave too.
- Eden, feeling kind of down
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| Gray skies are gonna clear up... |
[30 Jul 2003|04:32pm] |
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I got invited to a party this Monday!
Wait... rephrase that to "I forced my way into a party this Monday by promising to bring sake."
Parties = good way to meet people.
I just hope my chronic agoraphobia won't be a problem.
...
Er. Dammit.
- Eden, feeling anxious for Monday
( OOC )
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| Yay? |
[28 Jul 2003|02:52pm] |
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Boom ! - System of a Down |
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Right. I'm back. I forgot about this journal. Like I do every other one...
Erm... nothing much to say except for the past few days/weeks/month/however long I haven't written, I've been hanging out at a coffeehouse, ordering some random overpriced crap and just people-watching...
Right, that's SO interesting. Urgh.
Um.. I wrote a new song. Maybe I'll post the lyrics up later. Later. Yeah.
I'm going to go pick up PIA and see what bands are playing soon. Now. Erm. Effort. *dies*
- Eden, feeling really crappy
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| I'm... alive... I think. |
[19 Jul 2003|12:58am] |
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Uncertainty - Eden's Influence |
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I'm... alive... I think.
I hate journals.
I always end up getting one though. I only buy ones that I like the look of. I'll write a few entries in it, and then abandon it entirely. A few months or years later, I'll find it again and lament over what a loser I was, or how bad my handwriting was.
I'm going to try and stick with this one, though.
Hmm... Isn't that a little stereotypical? The amazingly introverted vocalist of random band keeps a journal. In a few years, you might find me dead of a "self-inflicted" sawed-off shotgun wound to the head and then publish my deepest, most personal thoughts to the general public. It worked for Kurt...
Speaking of introverted, I need to meet some people. I can't believe I have to force myself to do that. I'll probably end up lurking at a concert, trying to strike up conversation with the bandmembers.
"So, you're in a band? What a coincidence..."
Yeah... right.
MY GOD I NEED TO GET LAID.
- Eden, feeling kind of bored
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